Why?

I am back! Hahaha. Okay. I know I have so many posts related to my coming home after  few nights in the arms of my new lover. Gee, I missed my bed and my messy room! There’s no scent that could give me the sweetest slumber ever other than my room. Or Queen’s. Hahaha. (If you get this, just laugh it off.)

Whoa, finally! No more Poker—I have kicked the what could have been my addiction.Yikes!

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Someone was calling me around 3:30pm today. And I did not pick it up. I just let it ring until it ended. Obviously. Hahaha.  Well, let us just say that I am a coward. Truth is, I so detest surprises. I hate it that I am left in the dark. But I am not nosy, okay? Had I picked it up, I’d be crazy all the more. Gosh, baka maglasing pa ulit ako sa Jack’s Loft.Hehehe.

Now, let us play guessing game. What was the agendum? 

A. Someone is getting married soon. Wow, is sensitivity lacking again? Did I subscribe to any updates? Can I just send “UPDATES OFF” to 2366? I wish…

B.  “Hey, send those gifts” reminder. Forgive me, I was so busy to ship out my Christmas gift. Promise, I’ll do it within the week. Hopefully, I am off the hook until God knows when.

C. “Did you do it?” Whaaaaat?!!! I just thought that maybe, for the nth time that I didn’t notice it, I am charged again. Hurled wiith accussations and the likes. Come on, there’s no cure to your insecurity. Don’t makethe  “abused becoming the abuser” in me. I have no more intentions of getting back at you. I rest my case. ALL YOURS! Isaksak mo pa sa baga mo since magkakasya naman—Gara (when she was consoling over my lost of self esteem then). 

D. Another soul is jobless, too. And that needs some help. maybe some strings to be pulled to re-align connections again. Shall I  get started on putting up my own manpower agency? Hahaha.Kidding only. I am very much willing to help as long as I could. Some has the idea of how generous I can be….at times. 

E. “Remember when?”.Yeah, I do, I have a retentive memory and I am accountable with everything that I have divulged in that 90minute phone conversation. How can I forget? I was charged by Globe around 800 pesos for that. Thanks to lamby’s postpaid line, talk all I want. Seriously, I enjoyed that conversation. You made me feel that you care. Going back, I know that May is fast approaching, I am going to shoulder half of the celebration (if requested). Or I can just open an account for the cutest soul I know. Of course, next to the original “Tita Lei” caller.

F. None of the above. Hahaha. Ikaw naman, masyado kang assuming! Sana kasi sinagot mo nalang para di ka nag-iisip ngayon.

Choices aside, I knew it in my heart that I made the right choice. I am trying to be a believer of “what you do not know will never hurt you” philosophy/drama. I don’t want to subject my heart into another break/tearing episodes ever again. Ang sakit sakit na eh (Basha, paborrow via One More Chance). I’d bet that I am a totally different person now had I answered the call. Even if I don’t want to get affected, it’ll creep into my system. And Absolut may not be able to make me feel numb, even, 

Also, if the call was of great importance, that number will appear on my Javelin repeatedly.  But it did not. No SMS, too. It was not important and let’s leave it at that. 

Now, convince yourself, LK. Busted.